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Happy New Year!

It’s dull and cold today. I’m stuck at a desk and I miss being outdoors.

I’m back at work and struggling to find balance between the things I “should” be doing and the things I want to be doing.

I miss the freedom of the holidays, when I had extra time in bed, ate chocolate for breakfast and went on long, meandering walks in nature.

I find myself defaulting to familiar patterns – scrolling on my phone, looking for that miracle cure-all for winter lethargy.

I visualize a simple life with a clutter-free home; a diet consisting of foods that nourish me; a toned, lithe body that defies ageing; a job that fulfils me.

Instead, 2026 had begun exactly as it ended, with me, surrounded by clutter, a to-do list full of mundane tasks, and an uninspired evening ahead with only Netflix for company.

I want to ‘become her’ – but where does one start?

When I ask that question – which I do often – I start cleaning. Like I say, default behaviours. Or I jump on a bus and spend money I don’t have on things I don’t need. Or visit a cafe and write down all the things I want in my life. Not only am I procrastinating on what I could be doing to “become her”, I’m actively self-sabotaging.

Is this just winter? Is it a form of overwhelm? Perfectionism? A lack of self-belief?

Perhaps you feel the same?

You know something needs to change; you’re not exactly sure what, and you lack the energy, motivation and guidance to…just start.

Maybe that’s it.

Just start.

Write a few lines. Read a few pages. Walk, stretch, lift a little.

Just start.

January is not about making huge life changes.

It’s dark. It’s cold. It’s for rest and recuperation and softness. We can start to plant seeds for the future but we don’t have to have everything figured out just yet. 2026 will happen regardless and what seeds we plant now will reach fruition later in the year.

Pick one thing you want to do. Just start.

I’m writing this today because it’s a start. It’s nothing special. Definitely unpolished. Possibly not fit for public consumption. I’m flexing a muscle; planting a tiny seed. I know I want to write more this year, share more content, do it more consistently.

If this is all I manage today then at least I can say I made a start.

What will you start today?